So, it’s been a crazy two years.
I haven’t written much as I used to. But I have a good reason why, which inspired me to post.
Mental health. There are apps and journals and Youtube channels that give advice on self-care and self-love. But mental illness is a bit more complicated than regulating your breathing or opening your chakras. Those things can help alleviate some of the psychological pain that comes with depression and anxiety. However, it can only take you so far.
For the past 15 years, I have gone without treatment or therapy for my Persistent Depressive Disorder (Dysthymia) and Panic Disorder. I feel a bit of guilt for letting my mental well-being take a back seat in my life. I have always been an introvert but lately, I have almost become reclusive. This is not okay.
On top of that, I have school and keeping up with the bills. While I passed my first year of ultrasound school and will be going to clinical, the pressure is building up. At this point, if I’m going to be on my A-game in 2022, I need professional help.
This is not a New Year’s Resolution. I’m making a promise to myself to take better care of myself. Self-care is being aware of when I need help and taking control by getting that help. There is no shame in wanting the best for yourself.
One word I learned in school has stayed on my mind all year. Homeostasis. When the body works in synchronicity to maintain stability. I like that word because it reminds me of why I need to take my mental health seriously. To maintain and to keep me grounded. No matter what happens, I got to check in on myself when I feel that darkness hovers over me.
This Christmas seems to have a bit of cautiousness in the air. Like there’s an underlying pandemic that people don’t talk about. The depression from losing loved ones. The anxiety from losing a job. There is definitely a feeling of hopelessness in the air.
On this Christmas, give yourself the gift of mental health. There are programs where you can find help if you’re low income. Since I call both Alabama and Georgia my home, I will post a link here for you all to check out if you are looking for resources:
Life is going to kick your ass. Gotta learn to kick it back.
Have a Merry Christmas and stay safe.
