There are moments in my life where I fall into a deep depression, it’s been diagnosed as dysthymia or chronic depression. I try my best to keep it together so I can function day to day but there are days when I want to isolate myself for the sake of my own sanity. A common thing for empaths is being diagnosed with anxiety and depression because we feel everything and when there’s an influx of negative energy, it gets to be too much to handle.
There is a small ray of hope that I cling on to, it’s temporary. I know when things seem to feel like they are about to collapse I remind myself that this is only a temporary state. In the past, I was too young to see that like isn’t a straight line. It’s a combo of hills, valleys, potholes and rough roads and then some calm waters. Knowing all this gives me a bit of relief that things will work themselves out in their own time and that I must be patient. In the meantime, I pray, meditate and give my soul some time to rest. What others might deem as “unproductive” or “not motivated” I see as preparing myself for the next stage of my life. This process literally happens every two years, here is how it usually goes:
- Year one, usually middle of the year, there’s a sudden drop in my mood that feels as if it’s here to stay. This is usually followed by some form of drama or financial issue.
- I shut down, not to close anyone out but to process the gravity of my situation (helps me make sense of my reality).
- There will be a lack of interest in the outside world for a while as I need time to manifest what will a kickass new transformation (think of it as a mental cocoon).
- I go into prayer and meditation mode for several days, pestering the universe for answers to what my next move should be.
- Then after several sessions of talking to Creator it happens, an opportunity presents itself and I spring for it. There will be a bit of slow down but that’s because whatever is about to happen is gonna take a lot of energy from the Universe and a lot of trust from me.
- Then….BOOM I end up in a new chapter in my life and the transition is complete, at that point it’s up to me to keep to momentum going until the signs of change come again.
I’ve been going through this process for almost ten years and it never fails. So I write this going through the semi-dark phase of this transitional period I have this to say for those who may be feeling the same…
You will get your wings soon.